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Once again it appears to me that I may be banging my head against the wall. Maybe I am totally out of touch with today's "Martial Arts," what ever that is truly.

I question myself continually and the question for me today is, "why bother, very few actually listen and they very seldom go outside their own personal belief system?" (Even if you are lucky enough to be right) After all, it is not a matter of getting fees/paid, etc. I get nothing as to remuneration by posting my meandering thoughts.

It seems that in today's world of Karate that any posting done is just a venue for someone else who feels they know better to refute what you say and inset their own belief system in its place.

I seem to fall into this category. Is it because I am trying to teach or convey knowledge or am I just "refuting someone else's belief system?"

I was sitting in a meeting yesterday and the person acting as the project lead wanted some data. When I said I already had it and passed it along verbally they acted as if I said nothing and started to justify their need for me to do the work once again so I sat there getting kind of steamed when I realized I was falling into the monkey dance so I told myself, "Just do the data and send it to them and stop turning it into drama. There is no reason not to just submit a simple email to all parties, get the response, and forward to the lead. So shut the f%$# up and do it."

I then just said, I will send them the mail for the data and let you know when its done. They said ok and that was that so I just allowed them to continue with their belief system and put the matter away.

What has this to do with this post, it is just that sometimes I feel that it may be "rude" of me to assume that my posting and my efforts are even wanted. I read once that in the dojo it is incorrect/rude/inappropriate to assume you as a practitioner should be providing instruction to others especially when they don't ask for it. It is extremely rude so if that is true they why do I go to the trouble of posting my thoughts and idea's on karate to a blog.

No one asked me to, no one requested I correct their way of practice. If anyone wanted to hear what I had to say they would ask wouldn't they?

I learn new stuff almost every day. I take it in, evaluate it, make sure it is valid at least to me, then I assimilate it into training and practice to make sure it is valid, that it works. So, this is what I do and who asked me to provide it to the world on the blog? No one.

Is this just my ego feeding me to make me feel superior or knowledgeable, etc. ? I am getting that sneaky feeling this is true and maybe it is time for me to Kick that Mo$#@#F*(^%$# butt and let it go. It will not change my attitude or my practice and training. It has taken me to this point and I expect it will go further but I am not sure I should be teaching anyone who has not "asked" for my instruction and/or postings.

Something I need to contemplate and make a decision.