Doing It Wrong

How do you feel when you find out you have been doing something you believe was "right and correct" only to discover it is "wrong?" How you handle such an event will speak to you, or not.

Sometimes I find I am doing something wrong and it speaks to me then sometimes it does not and it can become a matter of my inability to accept that it disrupts my story so I resist.

I can truthfully say that although I might resist eventually I come around to the correct thinking. Example: I was dating this young woman and when the topic of marriage came up I said, "I will never ever get married again." She simply asked, "why?"

This stopped me in my tracks and I just looked like a dumb ass cause I could not answer. I took that thought with me for a while and realized I had no decent answer other than I had a bad marriage before and the divorce was a real bummer. I gave it more thought and now have been married for fourteen years.

I am finding some extensive flaws in my FA/MA practice. Nothing that changes what I practice but changes the perspective I take in that practice. I no longer say that I teach self defense. I will say that I have recommendations and then point them to where they can get some knowledge and then tell them they can then find someone who can fill the bill, maybe. After all there are very few out there who can teach real self defense and not this bogus stuff I use to teach long ago.

This is just an example and there is more I am realizing. I just thank the powers to be that I am at least acknowledging my short comings in this life and hope that I can continue to admit that my story may be in need of adjustment.

Life does throw some cures don't ya think? Hey, I am thinking of not calling what I practice a FA/MA except that the source it comes from fills that bill. Do I teach how to fight, nope. Do I teach a fighting/martial way, maybe but with a lot of caveats. Maybe I am making it way to complicated!